My world of Thoughts

Counting down.....

2008-12-04T17:23:00.002+08:00

well i know its been some time since i've updated....
been busy with stuff that i dunno what they are..haha....
as i'm writing this entry, i am exactly 11 days away from reaching back home....
this is super exciting..never been so excited to go home...
n this made me think that time realli do fly...n the semester is very nearly over...
finals are like next week n hence i think that this will be my last entry at least till i finish my finals...
starting to mug hard esp this weekend.....n i realli do need to have miracle in my french.....
j'aime le francais, j'aime le francais, j'aime le francias....
gonna need some brainwashing to tune my brain into that language...
not only that i have other finals too.....
well, best of luck to me!!! N also the rest who are taking finals too!!!

San Diego!!

2008-11-11T18:16:00.004+08:00

Its a bit late in posting this entry cos i went to SD on halloween weekend which was like 2 weeks back....A bit of backlog here...
haven really been blogging cos the feeling is not there for me to write stuff.....
think its the results of me having to write essays every week for my class and hence dun really feel like having to write more.....
its 2 am here now...n its veterans day hols tmr....

well back to halloween weekend....went to SD with a group of friends.....had a fun time there with almost everyone dressed up to fit in the theme of halloween......it was great atmosphere there as on the streets everyone was in their halloween costumes....so different that u would find back home.....

another is that SD is a nice place....the beaches there are nice....went to the zoo there but i feel it was nothing spectacular.....wanted to go to sea world there too....but the tix was too ex so in the end all of us did not go in.....other than that we went to little italy, mission beach...etc
On the last day, we went to coronado which was jus a bridge across SD to go to the famous hotel Del.....n we too went to the beach there which was realli nice.... the views there are like superb...

overall it was a fun trip with the people i went with.....had a fun time with them.....gonna miss some of them........n it was my first road trip out of vegas!!!! so had a fun time n experience driving on the highways......N its my first time driving on roads for so long.......looking forward to more trips to california!!!

Here are some photos....the rest are uploaded on facebook!!

Short Term Memory!!!

2008-10-05T16:13:00.002+08:00

Been a long time since i updated my blog...haha well not becos i'm not free rather i do not know what to blog about.....
Life's been good here....nothing much interesting or much to do.....except shopping which some of u might know i've been shopping too much recently.....
oh n jus realise i do have super short term memory.....how can i forget things that are important!!!!
was shopping n decided to get something for my fren....but suddenly i could not remember how he or she look like n the size i shd get for him or her.....OMG!!! it has never happen to me before...guess age is really catching up on me!!!
oh ya today went to the strip to take a look at all the resorts there....
let me tell u something.....vegas is finally feeling like fall....
it was cold tonite esp with the wind blowing.....
what a sudden change in temp as it was still hot two days ago...
I was like freezing in my outfit as i din expect it to b this cold!!!!
BUT what a nice difference it is to the hot and sunny weather i have been experiencing for the past 6 weeks..........
Yeah and finally, mayb its time to store up some winter clothings.....haha..more shopping??

VEGAS!!!!

2008-08-27T13:16:00.004+08:00

I'm like 1 week in vegas....
apparently there is nothing much to do here despite the hype at the strip....
i guess cos like i'm not here as a tourist and its inconvenient to get there...
transportation is bad here...but i guess this will make me save alot more money cos i dun get to shop....hahhaha
school realli is keeping me busy these days though it has jus started.......
but i guess its kinda like different studying here and back home..
i'm like thrown into lotsa stuff jus first week of classes...
but i guess the enthusiasm of studying finally comes back to me after so long....
cos wat i am reading now interests me so much....
guess it pays off with all the hardwork..
hopefully i'll get used to the pace and get into a momentum here...
and i hope that this enthusiasm will last me throughout this sem and also the following yrs....
then lets see i have the time to go down to the strip on weekends.....haha
and mayb can post some of the pics....
Work hard and play hard will be my motto!!!

PS:Look at how i write it so work hard will b my priority now!!!
PPS: I miss all u guys back home!!!

Time Flies.....

2008-08-11T18:04:00.002+08:00

Like my header shows...time flies pass really quickly.....
In a flash I am jus one week from flying off.....
Finally after so long, my things are almost done....
Left with some itsy bitsy tiny matters...
recently I am like lost in my room trying to find my health booklet.....
OMG how old is that!!!!! I cannot even find it.....
but i need it somehow... so gotta find it quickly.....
PLs God let me find it.....Jus hope it will miraculously appear in front of me...
There are still alot of stuff that i wanna do b4 i leave...
but dun think there is enuff time for me to do so....
so probz i will jus try my best.....

So as i am jus typing about my health booklet..YEah!!!!! it appears finally after my mum went to search for it at the place i remembering where i put it....Thank God...
It saves me so much trouble......
it has been like that often..when i wanna find some stuff i does not appear at all.....
irritating.....but its ok cos its at last settled....
So leaving in a week is like so fast....
I'm like totally not prepared at all....
sometimes i feel emo about the things and ppl i'll b leaving behind....
when i think of it i start to feel sad......
But i guess all of us has to look forward....
n like my title says time flies so hopefully it will pass fast.....

Amsterdam

2008-08-07T01:46:00.001+08:00

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London

2008-08-07T01:07:00.001+08:00

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Barcelona

2008-08-07T01:06:00.001+08:00

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New York!

2008-08-06T23:36:00.001+08:00

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2008-07-27T16:52:00.002+08:00

Too many things happen in such a short time.....
dun really noe where to start talking abt it n thinking abt it....
mind is in a whirl n cant seem to think things rite at the moment....
been thinking recently abt some things that i used to believe in the past..now am not so sure whether i shd stil believe in it.....
guess many things and circumstances have changed over the years....
things i used to think is very important may not seem the case in others view and mine too...
it is starting to crumble and shake my trust and stand on it...

Am i doing the right thing??? this qn is always on my mind in my thoughts like a ghost haunting me but nv once am i able to give this qn the absolute answer.
this attaches to many things in life...and i really hope that once i am able to get the answer to my own question, i am realli b able to stick by it and not waver to other that comes my way......

Flying Off to London Tmr!!!!

2008-06-20T09:09:00.002+08:00

Last night here in NY....n I'm spending at the lounge of my hostel blogging and settling some stuff which is somehow solemn for it....
Haf a sad feeling that overcome me but i noe its not becos i'm leaving NY..although i admit it does have some impact....i really do like it here although not much stuff to look at but so much shopping can b done here....guess i have to leave quickly b4 i go bankrupt......haha
wanted to steal some photos from my fren to post it up on the blog but somehow the internet connection here is super bad.....
my internet keeps hanging...probz too many ppl using it....
i'm excited that i am flying off to london tmr and then spain...this is super exciting...going to europe for the first time...
went to visit my school n i love it there.....
it's so beautiful and big..took some pics for all of u guy to see but guess can only post it up much later.....
having some hiccups here and there with school but i do hope everything goes well smoothly....
and that i will b back there in august....
cos i do really like it there and that my school academic advisor and stuff....
this will b like a totally fresh new start for me.....
guess that wil b all for now...
more updates will come when i'm in london...

Niagara Falls!!

2008-06-12T11:28:00.002+08:00

Been a few days since i updated.....
jus came back from a tour which is only two days....
went to the niagara falls.. which is like one of the seven wonders in the world.....
now i finally get to see it all i can say that is is truly magnificent....
took alot of pics but unfortunately i'm unable to upload any as the com here does not allow...
shall post up some pics when i get the chance to do it...
had a fun time travelling in NY... met a couple of frens and had a crazy times together....
i guess this is what u shd get from travelling...
i'm so excited as i'm ablt to meet my sis tmr...
its been half a yr since i last met her...
super excited...
think we r gonna have a fun time and lotsa catching up to do..
thats all for now cos its getting real late....
n i'm super tired from the long bus journey back from the falls....
Ciao

New York!!!

2008-06-07T19:03:00.002+08:00

Updating my blog at 7am in the morning is not what i will usually do....
Cos i'm not such an early person..
but its does not matter really...
I'm in new york!!
Finally.... after a long haul of flight journey with nothing to do onboard....
felt like a pig up there....eating, sleeping then eating again...
haiz as always i feel like that..think i'm gonna gain weight when i go back..
Saw the london heathrow airport, it was huge... and looks like our t3..but there is really alot of things to shop inside there jus probz to ex for me...
i was totally lost when i reach..haha took the subway in new york for the first time..
din do much on the first day as i was jus too tired to go anywhere..
unable to upload any photos but i try asap...

Excited.......

2008-05-29T22:05:00.003+08:00

Wow, it's been one month since my last post....
Ard this time i have jus decided to go for a holiday....
and i'm flying off next thur...
how super exciting!!!
alot of first times for me....going away alone, to a new country i have never stepped before, somewhere so far...hahah...
it will b a super big step for me but since i have decided i shall go along and b brave...

Many things have happen in the past one month...
sometimes i cant help it but think how hard it is to please everyone....
no matter what kind of decisions are being made, someone will b disappointed...
lets jus say making priorities has nv been my best and i think its really time to learn...
N i believe my this holidays will allow myself to get away and have time for myself to think,
know what is my next step and rethink thru my current situation....

Hopefully by the time i come back i will be clearer in my mind.....
haven been able to sleep well recently...
dunno wat is happening but keeps waking up from my sleep..
probably got something to do with my dream but till now still cannot recall what happens in it
Somehow it feels so real and really shock me out..

i'm gonna jus ignore it la...haha
pretty random today but its jus me...

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2008-04-28T04:36:00.003+08:00

Its like 4.26am in the morning...
Should be actually sleeping at this moment but some how i cannot fall asleep...
mayb its becos too many things are going inside the tiny mind of mine..........
have not been in the best of mood recently...
which is quite rare..but i guess things have changed and its part of growing up..
many events have me thinking about alot of things...
many decisions to make....

feeling rather emo recently...
things have not really been going well i guess..
too many question marks are in my head....
never have this kind of feelings before but i guess everyone will go thru a new phase in their life
hopefully i will b able to work it out well....
need to start writing on my resume...
its like in a rush so hope i will b able to get it done up soon...
watever is the result, or watever outcome it mayb..

my frens,
pls do not b alarmed/surprised with any sudden decisions change which i was so sure about in the past as i say too many events, too little time
as time flies past, many new thinkings are set into my mind...
let's jus hope this time it will turn out to be fine...........

Quote for myself:

Always look on the brighter side of the things,
and it will all turn out to be fine.

This is realli what i am in need of at the moment.....

How Blessed I am!!

2008-03-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

Life has been mundane recently...
Surprise suurprise..i have been leading a normal lifestyle recently..
been waking up early since i'm on morning shift this whole week...
come to think about it, it's been a while since i last wake up so early in the morning and sleeping early.
Had three off days this week... which is rather a good break for me but for the past two days i work alot of hours so my legs are like dying now....

Coming to the topic how blessed i am...
feels that things have been working out for me...
recently i jus got back my results of my applications to the universities in US..
i am super duper happy... i manage to get in umass amherst..
this it like the unexpected... never thought that i would get into this school at all..
hence i was really not bothered into checking my application status...
when i open my e-mail the other day, i was in total disbelieve and shock....
the news of this only sat into my mind at night and feeling totally excited,
i had a hard time falling asleep...
N this is truly God's blessings to me.
I am truly thankful for it. For what i believe is totally not possible,
God made it possible for me.
With many things in a mess before and with all the decisions that are not made...
without any direction, things are looking positive
like sunrays creeping out in the gloomy sky..

This news is definitely of some boost to me...
and it has been keeping my spirits up for the past few days....
Really excited and also looking forward to this new phase of my life...

Just updating...

2008-02-19T01:01:00.002+08:00

Haha super bored today...
Realise it has been some time i have updated my blog and it is time i should do something about it....
nothing much happen recently except mayb for CNY which passes by like a flash...
went to work on the second day so nothing much interesting about CNY celebration....
then time flew past again n valentine's day came and past...
another day which i spent at work....
and this time i gotta work OT till 1 am before leaving...
was dead tired when i reach back home...
Met up with egg on the 15th afternnon before he leaves to melbourne...
Glad that i could catch up with him... as i was unable to send him off at the airport...
There are many shows that i wanna watch recently....
PS i love you, sweeney todd n etc....
watch kungfu dunk and felt that it was ok...unless u realli realli like jay chou....u'll love it...
wanna watch jumper too...but after hearing reviews from my friends..i am beginning to have doubts about wanting to watch the show....
this week will be another hectic week for me...
there is a quiz coming up and also meeting up with frens and all....
need to study for it and l am going to do that like in a while...
at least before all the gatherings later at night since it has already pass midnight while i typing this...
and drifting off to another world but unable to do that as i am still waiting for my hair to dry...
shall take this time to read some notes...
Ciao

Loads of crap

2008-01-27T01:03:00.001+08:00

Let's just say this entry is for me to crap cos i have nothing else better to do...
its so late at night...bored and doing nothing so decide to crap...
nothing much lately...
been working like 5 days a week....
with school like normal....
oh yes CNY coming in like less than 2 weeks....
i haven gotten any stuff for this occasion.....
and my dear i got to work during this festive season like on the second day
but luckily its starts late so not that bad.....
trying to do some catching up with frens recently....
but its not really successful...
guess i really do haf to try harder....
mayb it jus me not sure...
haiz....think thats abt it...
nothing really much to crap about....
haha till the next time...

Too Much time.....

2008-01-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

haha as my heading goes........
i have been really too much free time..
asking out frens for dinner n going out..
also went out for interviews here and there.....
yeah..finally after so long...
buck up myself to go job hunting.
so it can be said that it is a meaningful week.....
still manage to discipline myself to read one psalm a day..
this shall continue on...
i must be determine n continue on....
was reading this passage the other day

"He boasts of the cravings of his heart; he blesses the greedy and reviles the Lord.
In his pride the wicked does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God.
His ways are always properous; he is haughty and your laws are far from him; he sneers at all his enemies.
He says to himself, '' nothing will shake me; I'll always be happy and never have trouble."""

this pasage realli touches my heart. Was thinking about wat is written and feel that in how many times when we succeed in doing something, we will always forget the fact that it is God who made it possible. And also we will relish in the success and forget everything else that has contributed towards it.
Hmmmm.... guess it will put me in thoughts for a few days..
I am trying to work on my social life now..
haha catching up with all my frens so dun b surprised if u get my call.....
Rrrrringgg....Rrrriiinggg

Vietnam trip

2008-01-03T22:33:00.001+08:00

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The NEW Year!!!

2008-01-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

It's been a month since the last update...
So many things are happening in this month....
Firstly after my exams, i was busy with my mission trip meetings to vietnam.
Took alot of photos and frankly speaking has alot of thoughts there...
Although the mission trip there is really not in depth but it gives alot of insight to the people living culture there.
having been there, realise that the traffic in singapore is so much safer compared to the traffic there.
Next on the list in the busy month is the release of my results.
Din do as expected but i guess i've sorted out my feelings and thoughts about it over the days.
The happiet thing is that i've told my mum that i was going to church.
It is an unplan move and the reaction from my mother is not as expected but i'm glad about the reaction.
Went for countdown at expo... had a fun time there.
My sis went for xchange on the 1st.
Starting to feel lonely at home...
haha guess not used to having one person less in the house.
Think that is abt all...
Here are some pics from the vietnam trip.

Look at the horrendous traffic there!!!

Some children in the oncology ward

Some of the orphans....

Moments of Thoughts

2007-12-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

Finally all my exams and presentation are all over.....
Shld be feeling estatic and happy.........
However, a sense of loss and emptiness feels my heart as time goes by..
The loss of a goal and suddenly all that i have placed all my time and effort in all this while is no longer there....
Wat overcomes the happiness is thoughts that has never been set in before in my mind...
Wat is relationship??
This is such a fragile and filmsy thing that will be broken after time....
Be it friendship or others....
How many times have i feel neglected over and over again...
Who are really my close frens??
I realise that things are always not what it seems...
Is it the insecurities that are working inside me that made me feel this way?? i'm not sure about that but this feeling is there but always ignored.
Time is needed for me to sort out what is going thru my mind
Over and over again, always felt that I am unimportant..
How many times i have to convince myself that i do not feel neglected?
Is it my problem or am i too sensitive about the whole issue?
I have been asking myself when the question pops up.
too many questions without an answer..
As time passes, its getting too tired to think about it.
And hence accepting it as it is.
Those i feel are my close frens may not seem as close as i feel.
Always have this feeling that it mayb my own point of view and not a mutual thing.
Too many thoughts that i cannot figure out... and flowing thru my mind..
Shall think it thru till i find my answers.

Finally!

2007-11-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

After one month of writing and two weeks of agonising over the changes.......
Its finally over today!!!
Submitted my Final report to my Prof at 11.55 am......
Gonna remember the time when i hand it up and he said "its ok no problem."
I was literally gonna jump in joy....
Weeks and weeks of looking at the same thing over and over non stop is truly a painful experience....
Could not contain my happiness last thursday when my prof said "just the few minor changes and u can hand it up to me the final report."
Needed to share the happiness with people....haha
But i guess not many can understand the feeling and how estatic i was...
Before that it was just rejection and rejections of the work i've done....
Pinpointing on every thing and that it was full of mistakes..
continue on until it was like 2 days before my first paper for exams that i din even have the time and mood to study for that subject!
Thank god i was able to hang on and went thru this difficult time....
All is over i hope and now left to deal with my exams and presentation....
Pray that i will be able to focus and concentrate on studying for my exams and also my presentation will go smoothly without any mishaps....

:)

Pls Slow Down...!!!!!

2007-11-05T03:18:00.000+08:00

As the title of my blog shows.....
Pls slow down....
Dun u find that time is really flying fast pass us?
Its near the end of the year already...
One more month and my exams are ending...
hey come one, i haven even finish my projects and start studying n exams are like next week...
Arghh.......
Deadlines and deadlines..
near the end of the year and i'm not done with my applications...
Mayb its my fault for procrastinating so long...
but still.... this year is really flying past way too fast compared to other years..
y is this so?
can someone answer me????

Running OUT of Time

2007-10-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

It's boring boring.......
Even with the five minutes blogging is so important to me...
sigh... i realli need more hours..
TOO many things to be done...
all deadlines are like speeding towards me...

Dun talk about it...
let's talk about more happy stuff...haha
Sorry to janice and mui hwee..
i'm too busy to attend all ur b'day parties...
BUt HAPPY B'DAY to you!!!!!
Hope u guys have a fun time.

okie back to studies now...
be back soon to update..
back to the boring work...

Updates...time time time

2007-10-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

It is been a long time since i've been blogging.
So let me jus update what is going on in my life.
haha... i have been busy with my final year project (fyp) ,
been in school till late to rush out for what ever i need.
feel so tired after so many days of midnight oil. i should be writing my report now,
but its jus that i am so tired and sick of looking at my report for the past few days non stop.
And i feel so dumb as i dunno where i misplace the most important thing.
Wth, dunno where my thumbdrive is being placed. Its like the most important thing to me now.
Searched high and low but to no avail.

Have three on going projects and i think i am going mad. but hopefully by next week everything will be done.

Enough about school and serious stuff.
Miss service for the past two weeks cause not feeling well and quizes.
On tuesday, suddenly has to urge to go for service and also misses it.
mayb it becos i miss service consecutively for two weeks.
suppose to go out for dinner for win's b'day celebration but becos of sch work it has been postponed back weeks after week.
Sorry win, we should be able to go for the dinner soon.

Oh ya jus took my SAT last sat and was surprised to see rina and weixuan there.
Cos they were the invigilators for the test.
Think i not going to do well for this SAT.
may need to retake it....sigh

Miss my gals nite out with jo, jiahui, ja, rina n weixuan.
its beeen such a long time since all of us went out together.
hmmm....mayb i need some break and also make time and effort to ask them out.
so may things to do but so little time.
time flies so quickly that its like only one month from exams but there is still many things and subjects that i haven study...
i now really wish i have 48 hrs a day or i have supernatural power that i can have much energy even if i dun sleep. *in process of wishful thinking*

Ok, gotta go back to my dull report if not i really am going to become a zombie soon for not having enough sleep for many days...

Tata
hopefully i will find time to come back to blog soon.

ExAmInations

2007-04-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

Since the last post, its been sometime i've updated.....
Time realli flies.. its like almost a month and as the title says..Examinations on the way....
Been doing alot of thinking besides studyin recently..
haha .... althought the priority shd be studying..with like less than 2 weeks to go...
Sigh..i have like tonnes of work to finish catching up...

recently i just realise something...
i feel that i may have to change my way of communication...
ppl are saying that i shd think before i speak...
Is this the case..?
I've been thinking about it...
reflecting back..
i may have been rather insensitive to other people's feelings..
i dunno..argh..can anyone tell me...?
mayb its time i shd learn how to read other ppl's expression ..
and be more sensitive to their tone...
guess its something i really shd learn and learn it fast!!

Anyway back to examinations....,
its time i shd pull up my socks...
and pull it really high....
I'm so sorry to those people i haven keep in touch with...
I apologize k.... We shall meet up after our exams....
Good luck to all those whose exams are coming up...
Gambatte!!!!

Bored.....

2007-03-23T01:15:00.000+08:00

Since the last time of blogging......

its been like few weeks.....

nothing really any interesting happen to me......

After the last chill out with my frens...

its like me being cooped at home for the past few weeks except mayb for church stuff........feel like i'm getting used to staying at home....

i've always thought reading someone else's blog is jus reading......

but it seems like i'm getting easier and easier affected by people.............

jus by reading a post got me all emotional....thoughts jus came to my mind...

but its alright..manage to get it over..think it was jus for a moment....

So let me jus add some photos of the last outing......

jo & I Jiahui & I

Weixuan & I Ja & I

Rina & I

Don't all these gals look good!!!!

haha...of cos i'm not talking about myself.....

anyway i couldn't find a group photo so all the individual one's are added into it.

Hope u guys enjoy lookin at them...woohoo.....

Ciao

Mel

Post Birthday Celebration

2007-03-11T02:40:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Wala Wala.
Met up with my frens from hall.
They celebrated my birthday in Wala Wala and dedicated a birthday song through the band.
Its the first time that someone has celebrated my birthday in this manner!!!
Its so different from the rest of the birthdays that i have celebrated.
Thanx alot to u guys!! muackz muackz.....
Oh and wat a coincidence to meet someone i noe there!!
Anyway it was fun and i've really got a enjoyable break amongst my busy schedule with quizes coming up.
Thanx for asking me out!!

P.S: Dun worry ja... i wont forget to leave the drummer to u.

A Bientot Bises

FiRst Time

2007-03-10T04:04:00.001+08:00

Yeah!!!!
After so long manage to re-open my blog!!
Think its time to start update about my life to the people i noe.
Let them haf updates of wat is happening to me esp since everyone is so busy to meet up.
Thats all i'm gonna to write for now.
Ciao